Thursday, 22 March 2012

A Crazy Month February Was..

Wo hooo... February was a crazy month for me. Went to Ho Chi Minh City for four days (11 - 14 Feb) and that was fun. We stayed at Sherwood Residence in District 3 in an apartment belongs to Hubby's cousin. Our stay was great. The kids enjoyed the trip, and I enjoyed the shopping :))
Hello Comrade!






Even Abg Iqie went inside the tunnel
I need to be in the right size for this :)
We went to Cu Ci Tunnel - the World of the Vietkong. It was amazing... I can't imagine myself living underground like that. And the network of tunnels is just amazing. You have to bend to walk inside the tunnels. And of course the tunnels have been widen for the sake of the tourists. But the original ones were a lot smaller. Hubby tried the original size of the hidden entrance, and my god... he could barely fit into it.. Thank god his tummy didn't obstruct his way in :P


Sure can fit or not?


Ce ce ce... Leave the tummy inside
I really enjoyed Ben Thanh market. The shopping was just splendid and that almost cost me the penalty for the extra baggage by AisAsia. The airlines is really a blood sucker...


All in all... Saigon was fun. I love the food and I particularly like the shopping trips (like... when am I not?). Special thanks to our cousins and the family (Kak Na and Abg Alfie and the kids) for the accommodation and for being very good hosts. We'll definitely come back...


ieja







Monday, 6 February 2012

What I'm Into Right Now

There are two things that I'm into at the moment: Adele - Someone Like You, and Nikon D300.

I have been playing Adele's Someone Like You for I don't know how many thousand times. I really don't know why the song seems to stick in my head and on my player. I even wish that I had a voice like her. And those who know me know what kind of voice I have :))




I play her song the whole time I'm in the office and at home, she's on the YouTube. How crazy is that?

The ever so willing models
One of my models.
Another thing that I'm into by accident is photography. The photographer at the office resigned so I'm left with no one to take photos of the company's events but me. So, I've been playing with Nikon D300, and OMG, for someone who has no clue at all about cameras and photography, it is really a challenge. I had to hit the ground running with all the events that require an almost professional photographer. So, I've insisted that I'm sent to a photography class. While that is being arranged, I have the camera to myself to play with. Hence, a lot of "rubbish", but thank god it's digital and not the Jurassic-type of camera that requires rolls of films. So playing with it is quite fun. 

Am still practising...
Haven't killed this one yet!
I know I have a long way to go before I can really master whatever the camera can do. So the first step was to invite my brother in-law to come to give me a quick lesson on the important settings that I need to know. Thank god I did some readings before he came, so the words like 'shutter speed', 'aperture', 'ISO', etc. were not so foreign. At least I didn't have a blank expression on my face when he mentioned those words. It was just a matter of putting the words into the right context. And the quick lesson really helps...

 Obviously, I need more time to practise and more subjects for my practice. And I'm sure the kids would love to pose more for mummy...

Ieja

Wednesday, 25 January 2012

Abang Iqie, Abang Afeeq & Princess Rayna

The three of them are really my bundle of joy.  I have not once forgotten to thank God for giving me such beautiful things to brighten my life.

Abang Iqie is now 6 and learning to read. He can spell quite well now. He can multiply and subtract quite well too. But he sometimes lacks focus. So Hubby and I really need to see his work after he's done. There were times when he held back his tears because I lost my patience when he was not focusing on his numbers or letters. There was this one time when I really lost my patience and I screamed at him. He held his tears so hard that when I finally finished with him, he ran to Hubby and cried in the room. I felt so guilty and felt like crying too...

Abang Afeeq is now 4 and is a cool and playful boy. I'm sometimes amazed with his I-don't-give-a-rat-ass attitude. He can ignore everyone around him and just go about his business like nothing affects him. But sometimes I can sense his middle child syndrome. He wants the attention, especially when it's bedtime or shower time. I don't mind giving it all to him, and when it is necessary, I always make sure that he is given the priority. But I'm quite worried when he's not eating... He has lost some weight... He's really into cars so he has more than a dozen Hot Wheels cars in his collection. He even has his own Hot Wheels wall-mounted track, and a track carpet to play his cars with.

As for Princess Rayna, she is sweet and so not girly :) Whatever the brothers do, she can keep up with them. They jump on the bed or off the bed... she's right behind them. And knowing that she's quite protected, she sometimes 'demands' things, especially if she sees something that she likes from Abang Afeeq. Poor Abang Afeeq... Rayna really likes to disturb him. She's sometimes his shadow - much to his dislike! So, I have to put up with the shouting and the fighting and the wrestling. She's also very cheeky and learns things very fast. She can understand all of us easily and she can say words that are easy and familiar to her. She's now into bears (her soft toys), but not Barbie-like dolls. Most of the times, she plays with her brother's toys - which are so not girly...

Although sometimes I feel that when we're home, I'm more tired than when I'm in the office, the satisfaction and the good feelings that I have are priceless. I don't mind the shouting, the fighting, the crying, etc. as long as we are all together! 

Mummy loves you Abang Iqie, Abang Afeeq and Princess Rayna... very very much!

ieja




Saturday, 7 January 2012

I Am Guilty

I have this guilt that has been hanging at the back of my head for the past few days now. Will I let my ego win or will I let my conscience lead to to do what is right?

I have been arguing with my parents about the renovation that they were doing back home. I was not so agreeable to it. I told them to find a new house and the money can be used to renovate that house instead. To me it's better than spending money repairing and renovating the old house because there are a lot more to do for the old house. But my parents didn't want to listen to me. So they renovated that old house.

When the renovation completed, they came to me asking for more money. Well.. There are other things than what I'm writing about. It's not the money that matters to me. It's about how they didn't want to listen to me and consider my opinions and what I had to say about the whole affair. I gave them the money anyway even when they didn't want to listen to me.

But what frustrates me was, they came to me when they needed things. And I feel as if that is all I am to them. I don't have a say in any matters at all. I feel used.

I came on quite strong to them, and I think I've hurt my mother's feelings. But I am offended too. Most importantly, I feel that I'm being pushed around by my dad and by my sisters.

And I know eventually I will call them and tell them that I'm sorry...

Ieja

Friday, 23 December 2011

Appraisal of Life Part 2

In my last entry, I talked about standard performance appraisal that most companies are practising in determining the performance of their employees. I went to an interesting sharing session the other day conducted by our Group HR. And I really learned a lot of things...

Some people really take this annual performance appraisal seriously. Some think that it is their God given right to receive at least 2 months bonus from the company they work for (although some of them have really doubtful performance). But what some of them fail to realise is that their performance is always subjected to comparison against their colleagues. If a group of people is doing the same set of work, it is only logical to compare their performances against each other. And if they have different appraisers, it is more important to have some kind of moderation or levelling to ensure this group of people is rated consistently. Would it be logical to you if all these people are rated equally? 

Not every thing in this world is created equal. Say you have 10 people to be rated in terms of their competencies and achievement of KPIs. Don't bull me and say that they all perform equally well. There will be one or two who stand out and can be rated as "exceed expectations / high performers", and likewise, there will be a few who can be rated as "do not meet expectations" or who we call "non-performers". The rest, can be rated as "meet expectations" or just the "average" guys. Of course, another handful will be "below average" guys. Easily said, if you have 10 people to be rated, who would you put as no. 1, 2, 3, 4,5... and 10?

After knowing the rating, it is now the appraiser's duty to communicate this to these 10 people. But this is where the problem always seems to be never-ending. No body wants to be the messenger of bad news... because in this case he/she will definitely be shot! The messenger will definitely not be popular. So, instead of telling what the "non-performers" need to know, the appraiser (not wanting to be the bad person, or disliked, or trying to be popular) usually tells these "non-performers" that the management (of course I don't know which management he/she is talking about) has pulled down the rating to ensure that the bell curve is achieved for the department and for the whole organisation.

So the appraiser has passed on the accountability to the management (again... I'm still not sure which management is he/she talking about). What is so funny here is that as the appraiser, he/she is actually the management! But of course the poor (this does not refer to the performance) non-performers will only have their anger for none other than the Human Resource department because the department is the owner of the whole appraisal's process for the company.


Even after being advised accordingly, staff usually repeat this cycle every year. They still hold the Human Resource Department by the throat saying that they deserve that 6 months bonus because of their disillusioned high performance.


I wonder if I will even get a bonus this year... If yes, that will be the first in... I can't remember how many years!


ieja



Thursday, 15 December 2011

The Appraisal of Life

It's that time of the year where most people who are the employees of an organisation need to do this exercise at least once every year. I am no exception. Yes... it's December and most companies close their financial year by end of December. Hence, those who are in charged of the performance and rewards are now busy with staff appraisal to justify their work performance, which eventually will affect the staff's salary increment or bonus.

I am never a fan of this kind of system. However elaborated your justification is to show how you are indispensable or an asset to the company, it all boils down to certain figures or ratings that are used by the company to see if you really are eligible for that extra compensation.

I have always been in companies that did not have a standard practice of compensating the staff with annual bonus. So, this is something  new to me. What I notice is that those who are in the companies that practice this annual bonus as part of their competitive rewards scheme would not take it well if they feel that they are not being given as what they expect to get. In other words, they think it is given, or it's the company's obligation to give them all this annual salary increment or bonus. When they don't get those, this is when I see some of the hell doors break open.

What they don't realise is that it is at the company's discretion that they actually get those bonuses, where the fine print always says "subject to the company's financial performance, and individual employees' work performance". If they are labelled as 'below threshold', in which God's universe would the company is obligated to award them with the annual bonus.

The funny thing about all these people is that the talk about their "work performance" and the subject of "bonus" only comes out when it is time for them to be appraised. Whatever happens in January to November? Have you done your reality check with your bosses if you actually meet their expectations at all?

Oh well... I hope I'm not going to be affected by these people. I haven't been given bonuses for God knows how long. So this year, if I really do get that kind of rewards, that really is a "bonus" for me :)

ieja


Thursday, 1 December 2011

My Journey Thus Far

I have been blessed with a lot of things. But one thing that I'm really really greatful for is my family. Abang Iqie is five, Abang Afeeq is three, and Rayna is one and a half years old. And I just celebrated my 6th wedding anniversary.

We're now paying close attention to Abang Iqie's reading and writing skills. He gets Maths and doesn't need much guidance. But he thinks reading and writing are a nuisance. Whenever the car stops, I would always ask him to spell whatever words we could see. Be it a billboard, names of shops or advertisments. Some letters still slipped his memory, and he has to recite his ABC to remember them. But on different occassions, that doesn't seem to be a problem. Is he practising selective memory like me? I sure hope not. But with a bit of encouragement (by that I mean a little bit of scolding and threatening and bribing), he seems to be on the right track. And I have to make sure that his memory lapses are not a permenant thing ;)

I also notice that Abang Iqie is a bit like 'by the book' type of kid. He listens to us when we reason with him. And we when set rules, he abides although he would try to get his way around them sometimes.

Abang Afeeq is still enjoying his play time a lot, especially now that Mummy and Daddy don't seem to pressure him to do any homework yet. Well... That time will come my darling. He's a bit cheeky, always trying to cook up something funny. But he can also be notorious especially if he is provoked, and if things don't exactly go his way. At the same time, he's a darling. Always says 'I love you' when you least expect it. He's a cheeky and tough Mummy's boy. And he reminds me a lot of myself :))

Although Rayna is only one and a half years old, she's more advanced than her two bros. She's very independent. She won't allow me putting on her shirt and pants after shower. She wants to do it herself, and blind me, she can! She can also eat on her own. She can understand us perfectly. Whenever she has poohed in her diaper, she would come to me and tell me that she had poohed. When I tell her to shower, automatically, she would take off her pants and shirt and head to the bathroom. She then would take the stool, place it right in front of the wash basin, demand for her toothbrush, and brush her own teeth. Of course I have to brush her teeth all over again. Once that is done, she would put back the stool where it belongs and enter the shower area. She would also shampoo herself, rub her tummy with the shower gel including her feet, and rinse herself.

Rayna has also started to utter words that we can understand. I can even have a decent conversation with her about simple things. Her obsession nowadays is cats. Whenever she sees one, she would follow and would want to kiss it. That doesn't happen to just live cats, but to pictures of cats too, on books or on the phones.

I guess these are the things that really make me feel blessed! Alhamdulillah.

Ieja