EMOTIONALLY TIRED

I've been working hard for the past two months. One of the reasons was because I had to organise and conduct a 3-day workshop for a client that my company considers as a tough one. Subsequently, I have to present the outcome of the workshop and write a blueprint for the client.

I haven't been sleeping well as my time was consumed mostly preparing for the workshop. Great detail and thought were put in the design of the workshop (the itinerary, the content and the activities), the templates and the worksheets provided. The quality of those was also our major priority. Alhamdulillah, the workshop went very well with the Deputy Director commented that she was happy with it. What made me more proud was the fact that the CEO of my company recognised this and had asked all future workshops to be benchmarked against ours.

But, I haven't got the chance to catch up on my sleep. A few weeks before the workshop and during the workshop, I only slept for about 3 hours every night. I still feel tired and my back still hurts. After the workshop, the writing part began, and I was also assigned with other things. My sleep is being sacrificed again. I just don't know when I would be able to sleep peacefully again - going to bed without having to think about work.

I also notice that I frown more than before. That is not a good sign to me - I rarely frown. I really need to sort out my professional life, or else it will affect my personal life. My personal life is too precious for me to be disturbed. I really have to do something...

ieja

ABANG IQIE AND ADIK AFEEQ (2)

Afeeq is now 4 months old. How time files. After going back to work, I have been kept busy with all the work and deliverables for the project I'm in. Sometimes, I feel guilty for not paying enough attention to both Iqie and Afeeq... and to Hubby too. But somehow, I try my best to make it up to them. I have my ways ;)

But what I want to record here is how surprise I am with Iqie. His love for his little brother is very obvious. Every night before he goes to sleep, he will lie beside Afeeq and kiss him on his cheek. And that is not enough to him. He then will "salam" his little brother's hand (not once, but many many times I tell you!) and kiss him again on the face (not just the cheek anymore). He will then place his face really near to Afeeq, before going to sleep - holding Afeeq's hand. I am touched at his display of love towards his little brother.

Learning for my son, I make it a routine to kiss both Abang and Adik before they go to sleep. I also pray that this display of love and affection will not stop and that it will continue until both of them grow up.

ieja

CHANGE MANAGEMENT

I am in Avillion, Port Dickson doing a workshop on knowledge management. My team and I arrived yesterday afternoon, and we're going to stay till tomorrow. I've mentioned knowledge management a lot in my previous entries and we are now developing a blueprint for an oganisation. The workhop is to present their current state - KM maturity level, as well as to get a consensus on their KM processes, KM governance structure and finally the strategic initiatives that need to be undertaken to ensure the KM journey is a successful one.

Today, I actually learn a lot of things. Things that we face every day but are not being recorded. I would like to record that for I am now an advocate of knowledge sharing ;)

I always believe that change is something that is very hard to do. I am not excluded. Once I am comfortable with a way of doing things, it's very hard for me to try a new way - regardless whether the new way is a lot easier than my old one. I learned today that when we face changes we first would deny them. We close our eyes to their benefits. Then we resist the changes. Without having any choice, we then explore the changes and discover the benefits they offer. The final stage of it is commitment - where we actually can't perform well if the new way of doing things is not part of our daily routine. A simple example, mobile phone - 10 years ago i didn't even have one. Today, I can't live without one. But how did I manage back then? How life is a lot easier by having one today!

Coming back to change management in knowledge management, the denial and resistance in the organisation that I'm dealing with are still very high, but of course not every one feels that way. There is still quite a number of people in this workshop who actually look forward to the KM system that we proposed. Those who resist are the ones who fear that it's going to burden them. they fail to see its benefits. They fail to realise that you have to put extra effort in the first phase of the project first to gain the benefits later. Well, I guess that is the first rule of having good things - pain first, then gain.

What I'm trying to say here is that in every initiative, every project, even in our every day life, change is constant. How we manage the change and how we culturalise and institutionalise the change would determine the success of the initiave, project or our quality of life. If you see the benefits of the change, why resist? Just live with it and manage it well. Once it is institutionalised in you, your transformation would be the best thing that happens to you.

ieja