THE END OF THE YEAR - 2009

We have come to the end of 2009. It's time to reflect. So... what have I done in the 12 months of 2009 that I can be proud of? WOW... I really have to pause (for a long time) to think of the answer to that question... And that just shows... hahhhaaaaa...

But I want to reflect in many ways... professionally and personally, socially and financially, and of course... spiritually... What have I done and achieved in 2009?

Professionally, I think I'm doing quite well. With the responsibilities given at work and what I have delivered, I've been rated as above average. With the recognitions from the top management, I think I am quite established.

On the personal aspect... I have Hubby and 2 adorable boys that I would die and do anything for. Another one is coming in April, which I forgot to announce to the whole world that it would be a girl :) Finally, I have somebody to gang up with. And not to forget, friends and family whom I can't live without.

Socially, I've managed to go to a few gatherings with close friends, of whom I considered friends for life. I have known these people for a long long time and if any one of them asks me for help, I would do everything I can to help him/her. I hope they feel the same way...

Financially, alhamdulillah, I have managed live my life according to my means. And alhamdulillah I can enjoy things that I love without having to have second thoughts. I can shop for the things that I want without having to feel guilty, but of course with some considerations to Hubby's comments :) That's how I keep check of my spendings...

And lastly, spiritually, I am immensely embarrassed to admit that I still need to do a lot of work on this aspect of my life. I shall make it my 2010 resolution to improve this. Insyallah...

Happy 2010 to me and all...

ieja

SNIPPETS

OF ABANG IQIE

Hubby's office had their 10th anniversary celebration very recently. They had a grand celebration in one of the old bungalows on Jalan Gurney. It was a blast with great food and entertainment. They even had a dance floor. We brought Iqie there and from the time we arrived, the dance floor was the thing that interested him the most. The music was playing, so he was on the dance floor even when the party had not even started yet.

Later, with the arrival of the other guests with kids, he began to attarct them. So he had a group of children dancing on the floor. The other guests said that he was a natural (I wonder where he gets it from... Definitely not from me and I don't think from Hubby too..). But he really killed every one there.

Even when the other kids had left, he was still on the dance floor, only to be surrounded, this time by the adults. They made a circle around him and he danced in the middle. OMG, he just didn't want to stop...

And BTW, he even got the chance to sing his version of "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star" on the karaoke machine..!!! TWICE...!!

He was the star of that night!

I think I'll upload his video later...

MY PREGNANCY

I'm in my fifth month now. But I work and act like I was not pregnant. I still travel almost everyday to Putrajaya, starting my day very early and coming back very late. Sometimes I had to burn the mid night oil to finish some work.

I am tired and my body hurts. I just wish that someone would be an angel and massage my neck and back. I really need that. But it seems that I'm in this pregnancy alone...!!

I'm pregnant, so I'm supposed to be emotional about a lot of things...!! Go ahead and shoot me...!!

OF AFEEQ

Afeeq has really grown up without me realising it. He can sing "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star" (his way of course!) with his little fingers making opening and closing gestures. Whenever we sing "Tepuk Amai Amai" to him, he will clap his hands and try to sing along. He can now say "Daddy" very clearly and "Mummy" not so clearly. I just can't kiss him enough.

But with my pregnancy, he seems to sense that he may not get that kind of attention anymore. He has started to be clingly... wanting me all the time. He has not been well these past few days, waking in the middle of the night and not wanting to go back to sleep and has been crying the whole time. So I have to hold him almost all night. He falls asleep only when it is morning.

All that holding hurts my back... And I wish even more for someone to massage my neck and back, and just be there for me... And yes... I'm being emotional again... So, sue me...!!

ieja

OF BIRTHDAYS AND ANNIVERSARIES

I have come to believe that the older you get, which is equavilent to a bigger the number in age, the less you pay attention to birthdays and anniversaries. I'm over generalised here, but at least this is true in my case.

When I was in my 20s, birthdays and anniversaries were very important. Forgetting the dates, or even to wish at the right time would cause fights. Of course this is true only in my relationships. But I had kept that sacred ritual for so many years, and it indeed had been established and cherised.

But recently, my birthday and my wedding anniversary were not being hyped. Wishes were given, celebrations were done, but the sacred ritual was missing. I still have not got any of my presents... Not even a card anymore (don't get me started on that one!!). I tried to shake away this feeling of incompleteness. But even after months, I still keep on thinking about them. I've asked, but my questions were not taken seriously. And I think today, I have stopped asking for them. But the feeling is still there. I don't want to impose, but... it's that feeling again... it just won't go away.

I'm not sure whether it is because we are so busy with things, like work and the children, that we tend to take these things for granted. Or is it because we think that the other party is just not taking it seriously... BUT I DO...!!! It does matter to me...!! Unfortunately, that message just doesn't get through...

I can't be asking every other day. I'm getting tired of asking... But efforts to find the presents and to surprise me are just not apparent anymore. The lack of interest is... And the results... of course... retribution on my part!!

ieja